random thoughts

2009-10-11T16:57:00.003+08:00

decided to finally post something on my blog after mstd haha. since it was so long ago, i shant talk about it much. mstd was fun but going through it again is gonna be tedious... all im looking forward to are the ports: Shanghai here i come!! =)

went out with some friends last night, partied at dbl o. 1 x bombshell + 1 x flaming lambo + 2 x tequila shots + 1 x spritzer + 1 x shared jug of whiskey mix which i didnt really touch = interesting night with really high ppl around me haha. if ur reading this rick, ur even more amusing when ur high haha. its times like this that i look forward to every wkend.

2009-08-05T15:40:00.000+08:00

nooo alonso plz dun go to real! dammit im hating rafa rite now.

2009-08-01T21:25:00.003+08:00

even though i'll be away for 6 wks starting nxt fri, somehow i dun seem to feel the sense of excitement nor the longing for home that most ppl have. am i really that insensitive to ppl around me? i know that now is not the time, but i keep thinking otherwise. i think im too bored these days that i've got too much time to think about life. 6 wks away. i wonder how much things will change when i get back. i'm not scared abt being away from home for so long, i'm juz scared of changes. scared to lose the life im living now. 6 wks. thats a fucking long time.

writing down wadeva came to mind really does tell me something. i think too much. this blog will be even deader then now

2009-07-09T20:30:00.004+08:00

I'm finally seeing home tmr aft 3 weeks stuck in camp! woo dam happy. its gonna be a gd day tmr haha =)

shall reply tags here since there are so many:

michelle ko: hi! whos this?

huishuen: hello! srry but i also dunno instructor elaine's facebook account haha. i could help u look around though. but no guarantees!

Elaine: yo! is this counted as a blog? hahaha be satisfied with it!

loy: dun wrry man, i cfm will be there. booked like 1 mnth ago alr haha unless ofcos i kenna confined lah. BUT i'll try my best to do everything perfectly so that wun happen haha.

2009-06-06T16:09:00.001+08:00

got the surprise of my life this week cos i was named platoon best! pretty happy abt it cos i thought i was rather slack during this few weeks lol. which solves the problem of not having enough tickets for the parade =) happiness!

2009-05-23T17:16:00.002+08:00

sometimes i juz wonder, i really am a coward at heart. never daring to do certain things, never daring to speak my mind. life isnt just a rollercoaster, its a rollercoaster in the dark. u never know when it'll go up or down, u'll never know who sits besides u, behind u, or in front of u. like shadows, old friends fade away into the background, new friends enter and all is well. at the back of my mind though, i know its gonna happen again. 10 years down the road, will i look back at the old times and try to rmb ur names or will i be sitting with those very same names looking back at old times.

decisions are killing me. i never know which is gg to be the right one. and since im unsure i never take action. do i really want to go to command sch? do i really want to go sim or overseas? questions begging to be answered. oh if i had a super power, it would be to see the future! back to regimental life tmr; i never will get used to it.

2009-05-22T19:12:00.003+08:00

army has been really really tiring so far. not fun having to wake up at 5.30 every morn juz to do pt. on the bright side of things, got my marksman alr, no more outfield and the sergeants seem to be nicer these days. haha maybe cos its coming to the end of bmt. dun feel like writing down all the stuff i've gone through so far cos it'll take too much time so i'll juz reply tags here.

busterboy: YEA chelsea and man u can go fly kite! haha even though they won the league... at least we fought all the way. next year is OUR year!

diyana, adlino & isabel: hello! haha and really u dun have to apologise for not tagging lol! i dun even go to my blog that often now.

Julia: YES! i've gained weight! hallelujah! i told u i could do it wahaha

???: wads "ily" lol

celia: hello also! haha cant believe u guys still come my blog aft so long haha.

magdalene: hihi! oh and u dun have to type ur url in cos ur linked alr.

2009-05-01T23:16:00.000+08:00

I pray You’ll be our eyes,
and watch us where we go,
and help us to be wise
in times when we don’t know.

Let this be our prayer
when we lose our way:

Lead us to a place,
Guide us with Your grace
To a place where we’ll be safe.

2009-04-30T21:12:00.002+08:00

IM BACK! for like 2.5 days... haha better than nothing. being back here on mainland feels soooo gd! the freedom, the coolness (nvr thought that singapore could be so cooling), no timing to meet, no stairs to climb. to keep it short, army has been quite an experience so far even though its only been the orientation wk. sometimes frustrating, sometimes uplifting, mostly juz plain dead tiring. pt everyday, early as hell reveille times, days that nvr seem to end and sergeants who seem to be devils in disguise. its been fun, in a kind of sadistic way haha. field camp starts nxt wk, really hope we can survive through it without much serious tekan sessions. basha, plz co operate and let us build u nicely!

happy things have happened though.
1) got my frst gold in ippt! =D dunno how, but i managed to jump far enough in sbj to secure 4 points. hahaha dam happy abt it.

2) i gained weight! also dam happy abt it =) and apparently it seems to be quite obvious becos all my family members noticed. haha my dream is coming true!

3) my section is dam crazy haha. seems like we click really well and luckily there arent any wierd ppl in it. hope this spirit continues throughout bmt.

2009-04-12T20:38:00.004+08:00

juz came back from a fun and relaxing holiday in kuantan and gonna leave for another "fun" and "relaxing" holiday in 2 days time to our fabulous Pulau Tekong! kindly sponsored by our Singapore Armed Forces, aka the ARMY, all lodging, clothes and even food have been taken care of. all i need to do is go there and enjoy. how cool is that. tmr's gonna be the last day on mainland soil for another 2 wks. how i have longed for this day to come.

liverpool vs chelsea match was a disaster, hopefully in the second leg we'll play like we played against blackburn, and chelsea will play like they did in their second half against bolton. so now all we have to do is shackle lampard and drogba and chelsea self combusts! rafa plz do take note. =)

2009-04-08T23:36:00.002+08:00

this wk's been kinda tiring so far even though its only wed. mon went back to play squash and run with wei qin. managed to hit 7.5 k before my knee started becoming more flexible then it normally should be. decided to stop and guess wad, it got worse over the nxt 2 days! gg knee, wonder if army will down pes me haha. wei lun managed to do a 9.37 for 2.4 so congrats if ur reading this!

liverpool vs chelsea tonite, eagerly anticipating the match =)

2009-04-04T23:11:00.003+08:00

havnt been blogging for quite long due to a couple of outings and another camp this time with new town sec. not too bad in the end although kinda hard to get them to be high abt camp. worked out alrite and i thought the campfire was pretty dam gd haha. one of the best so far, which really surprised me pleasantly. so i guess the instructors did fulfill the challenge to hype up the campfire =)

10 more days till the day i lose my hair and succumb to the rigors of a uniformed life. not looking too pleased abt it yet somehow lured to that life which seems more interesting. oh yes, and i think i've fallen in love with taylor swift recently, ever since the campers sang her song on the bus lol. go check out love story, really is quite a nice song. nxt wk's gonna be the last wk of civilian life, live it to the max! anyone and everyone reading this, plz ask me out and if im free i'll def be there haha.

AND WE'RE BACK TO THE TOP!!! BENAYOUN!!! OMG IM DAM HIGH NOW! WOOHOO 91st min omg we are really becoming the last minute team. wahseh, dam happy. shiok man. and wei lun, dun tag like that! seriously... lol both liverpool fans leh!

2009-03-23T01:33:00.005+08:00

ok im stunned. and to think i was actually afraid it would turn out into a goalless draw. lol how wrong can sumone get hahaha. but seriously, im looking at the tv now and its telling me liverpool 5 - 0 aston villa and its not even 75 mins! plus torres isnt even on form. i think their feeding the players steriods or sumthing cos this kind of scoreline only applies to teams like barcelona lol. no matter, its been a perfect wkend, lets hope the wk can turn out the same way haha.

Poets often use many words
to say a simple thing
it takes thought and time and rhyme,
to make a poem sing

With music and words I've been playing
for u i have written a song
to be sure that u'll know what i'm saying,
i'll translate as i go along....

2009-03-21T17:37:00.003+08:00

dammit we got chelsea in the champions league while bloody man u got porto... oh well, weak teams play each other while the stronger ones face off hahaha. chelsea really not tired of losing to us sia... unlucky for them.

heres a few ways u can find out if ur unfit:
1) if u run 2.4 and by the 4th round ur panting like a dog.
2) if u play cage for 1.5 hours and u get cramps while eating after that.
3) if u attempt to do sit ups and give up after the 15th one.

all 3 of the above unfortunately apply to me. im so screwed for army.

*NOTE
OMG FULHAM JUZ BEAT MAN U! this really might be our season! hahaha God really knows how to cheer me up =D

2009-03-19T22:08:00.002+08:00

sooo many tags on my tagboard suddenly! haha so i'll reply tags here.

Isabel: hahaha ya lah, all thx to u guys spreading rite! haha at least hazique doesnt call me uncle! =)

Trevina: i dun wanna choose any! haha all not suitable one lor... lousy options haha

Hazique: no way, chelsea's not gonna be higher then liverpool in the table man haha srry to spoil ur dream! and np, u guys made it fun also, not just me =) wah where u gg?

Loy: haha np! n im not boss sia.

Shirley: 3 days 2 nights camp i think arnd $150-160. but really they're juz paying u to have fun haha. oh btw, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY! srry i couldnt be there at the party....

min min: haha yea, need to extend it alr lol

Raguram: THX! and which one of them is fish hahaha, got new nickname to call alr.

2009-03-15T22:04:00.004+08:00

wei lun: EXACTLY! LIVERPOOL 4EVER!! hahaha shiok man the feeling. the pride is ours the humiliation is theirs. =) i'll nvr forget this thrashing haha. vidic clown lah haha.

gail, isabel, trevina: hahaha dun call me uncle! and too bad camp is over! now muz concentrate on psle ah. aft holiday muz study hard!

camp at bottle tree was really fun, esp for me as instructor. i was lucky cos my grp were pretty much well-behaved so didnt really need to shout much. i think im too nice alr, nicest instrutor here hor! haha. was really glad that my grp had as much fun as i did, and was kinda proud that they won best house! haha. was a great 3 days, too bad it couldnt last longer. its times like this that im really thankful i got this job =)

now i'll let pics do the talking. memories for all of us.

2009-03-14T20:12:00.004+08:00

replying tags today. too lazy and tired to write much.

219: thx!

rick, min, aikbin: yea haha im ok. dun wrry. juz a moment of insanity i guess.

isabel and fayth: UNCLE UR HEAD AH! im not dat old....

i couldnt help but add this part. LIVERPOOL THRASHED MAN U 4-1!! omg this day will go down in liverpool history if we win the league. im dreaming. i have to be. and all that talk abt man u being a fortress and being invincible. well i guess the bigger u are, the harder u really do fall. =D im happy, oh so happy.

2009-03-07T13:47:00.003+08:00

colors swirling, fusing and diffusing into each other. the future seems so near yet so far. some doors have closed while new ones have opened. languidity reigns with chaos as its right hand man. paradoxes? im full of them. hypocrite? perhaps. but isnt everyone, often saying things we dont mean. God doesnt have a plan for each of us. He has plans, and each choice we mortals make takes us along a new road. its all just a big chess game and we're the pawns. understanding other ppl has proven too difficult, being disappointed time and again, i've given up. Screw everything, i'm juz gonna be who i am. no more mr nice guy juz cause i like u. reality check, its not a venus and mars world.

and the lyrics of some songs juz became clearer to me. how true they are, let the celebration of life begin, before we lose it. random musings or the disturbed writings of a drunkard, u decide.

2009-03-06T00:05:00.003+08:00

had my first camp with high achievers this wk and i must say its really fun haha. even though the pay is alost negligible, i still dun regret signing up with them. was engaged at the last minute to go there to be a belayer for the high elements. reached there and realised it was for a p5 camp. haha never realised how small we were last time. none of them looked p5, more like p1. funnist thing happened during their indoor rock wall session. one kid was so small that by leaning back during belaying, we could literally pull him up the wall without him climbing much. so he literally was flying from rock to rock like spiderman haha. the kids have perserverance though and thats gd, cos most of them didnt give up until they reached at least half way up. a considerable achievement. got confirmed for 4 more camps this mnth, looking forward to them =)

happy news aside, its time for the gloomy part. results out tmr, n i've thought it over and over. i know which subjects i've screwed up BAD, and i think i'll be really lucky to see a B in the cert let alone an A. plus im not even sure whether i can get a full cert and that worries me most... sleepless night tonite i guess, contemplating the future..

seems that for me there doesnt exist a good or bad. its either bad, or worse. oh well like sumone told me, jeremiah 29:11. i juz hope God's on my side this time.

2009-02-24T21:05:00.005+08:00

set a new record for the most number of hours of playing squash. reached sch at 12+ played all the way till 5+. tmr morn is gonna be painful. BUT no regrets haha, nvr knew there was so much fun to be had in whacking a small rubber ball against a wall. dunno if it was the style i played in but i kinda broke the strings of 2 rackets... the frst was terence's racket, the next a racket we borrowed from yj to replace the previously broken one. lol how unlucky can u get sia.

driving tmr, looking forward to it. wad im not looking forward to is the release of A lvl results supposedly on 6th march... well we'll find out if its true in a few days...

2009-02-23T21:22:00.003+08:00

i turn 20 today! haha a bit narcissistic but... kinda sucks. no more 1 infront of the 2nd number alr.

at frst i thought it would only be me and terence tan gg out to play pool or catch a movie but suddenly more people sudd popped up! even wei lun who was supposed to be in nee soon camp appeared haha. nice time to get an mc hahaha! even more surprising was elaine also magically appearing in ps while supposedly "playing viwawa and winning so many times." all in all the day wasnt wad i expected it to be at all and i really gotta thank terence for organising and preparing everthing. i've gotta say though either im really dumb or im really really dumb. haha, thinking back i had so many clues that i dunno how i didnt find out earlier. muz be becos i didnt talk to elaine face to face cos her lies seem so real on msgs hahaha. no clues at all sia.

walked around for awhile, ate at fish market and talked crap for awhile. was really surprised by that magical appearance of elaine, followed by pool at paradiz where sumone learnt the art of one handed shots haha. ended off with dinner at xin wang cafe where more crap was talked and we went to cotton on for the third bloody time! i think we've been blacklisted there alr lah! after that home sweet home, srry i had to leave so early but family also had celebration.

Got a balloon which really clashed with my personality.... im a pink and flowery guy! and i like yellow tweety birds. haha although it was kinda embarrasing carrying it arnd ps n eating places n most of all the mrt, i didnt really mind.

the guys also got me a fan to supposedly emulate zhu ge liang for their own personal amusement. still not very sure wads the connection though haha. still i really appreciate their presence.

special mention has to go to the brownie and truffles that were specially baked. god knows how much time and effort was spent on that n sometimes i think im really blessed to have the friends i know. waking up at 6 juz to bake it really shocked me. btw if ur reading this, u shld know u ought to open a bakery in future cos the truffles are dam good even though it was supposedly "rushed". have yet to taste the brownie cos my voice is gg on holiday alr.

squash and bball tmr in sch, looking forward to it! haha gotta get my fitness back before i die in army!

2009-02-18T00:40:00.001+08:00

Crazy long post that i got from a friend's blog but kinda true haha

60 things most girls dont know.

Guys hate sluts even though they have sex with them!(oh yeah..you're not "popular" if you've slept with more than 6 guys..you're a HOE)-
-"Hey, are you busy?" or "Are you doing something?" ~ two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.-
-Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.-
-Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.-
-Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.-
-Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.-
-Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're goin for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.-
-A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.-
-Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.-
-Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.-
-Guys get jealous easily.-
-Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.-
-Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.-
-Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.--
Guys hate asking parents for money to buy girls presents. So they come up with ideas like saving their lunch money for a week. But it never works because guys are always hungry so they end up asking the parents for money anyway.-
-Girls are guys' weaknesses.-
-Guys are very open about themselves.-
-It's good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don't let him wait too long.-
-Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.-
-If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.-
-A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.-
-Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.-
-Guys will brag about anything.-
-Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful.If a guy uses that, he likes you a whole hell of a lot.-
-No matter how much guys talk about asses and boobs, personality is key.-
-Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.-
-Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.-
-Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.-
-Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then we're all confused.-
-Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.-
-Try to be as straightforward as possible.-
-If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.-
-If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.-
-When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.-
-When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."-
-Guys don't really have final decisions.-
-If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.-
-If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.-
-When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them.-
-When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.-
-Guys like femininity not feebleness.-
-Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.-
-A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.-
-Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.-
-Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear perfume. Just not too much.-
-Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.-
-Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.-
-If you are going to reject a guy, just do it. Don't say they are like a brother or just good friends, it just hurts even more. Tell them that you aren't interested in a relationship and they will respect you.-
-Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.-
-A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.-
-No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.-
-Not all guys are assholes. Just because ONE is a jackass doesnt mean he represents ALL of us.--We don't like girls who are too skinny.-
-Believe it or not shy guys are the most easiest to talk to..it may not seem right but trust me they will start opening up like books after you just ask them questions about their lives and unoticable tell them about yours...-
-Even if they refuse it all guys are ticklish on the ribs..-
-Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it ..it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts...-
-Guys will test the waters to see how far they can get with you. Even if he doesn't intend to it will happen. Know how far it is you want to let him go and he will respect that...after you let him know a couple times.-
-When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.

2009-02-14T20:34:00.002+08:00

officially started driving lessons today and i must say its quite fun haha. almost killed a cat my frst time on the road but luckily my instructor jammed the emergency brake. looking forward to the next lesson and im surprised it didnt cost as much as i thought it would. new job doesnt seem that enticing anymore after really thinking through it, maybe i'll juz stick to high achievers.

2009-02-09T23:24:00.002+08:00

well the new job looks kinda interesting i must say. so many incentives on top of the offer of a pretty decent pay plus the ability to earn even in the army. makes me skeptical haha. shall try out for the job and see how it goes. maybe it'll turn out to be a steady form of income haha.

2009-02-06T23:09:00.003+08:00

tennis, tennis, tennis. thats wad my life's been revolving around haha. ever since federer lost to nadal, tennis has become my new hobby! haha. pretty fun game even though i've nvr really it played before. hopefully more to come in the next few days.

new job offer also came in, maybe i'll go for it seeing the camp thing starts so late in feb. dun really know much details about it but at least it helps to kill time. and parents are gg to ipoh on holiday! so home alone time =) oh the fun of freedom.

2009-02-05T22:08:00.006+08:00

Got this off yahoo news, "A determined 68-year-old grandma in South Korea has failed her driving test 771 times." hahaha guess someone else's predicament aint that bad huh elaine hahaha.

played tennis today, 2hrs in the sun and i got sunburnt. lol wad a change from schooling days. guess i really have got to get out more often. tennis again tmr, looking forward to it.

juz caught benjamin button. lengthy movie but meaningful =) and i juz saw the new transformers trailer. DAM COOL with that major big robot 5x prime's size. cant wait for it to come out!

'Transformers 2' Trailer @ Yahoo! Video

"Life is full of little events that help to shape and mould the future."

2009-02-03T21:04:00.002+08:00

so my sis successfully transferred from sa to ac. ironic considering they're rivals haha. kinda like an ac guy gg to rj. anyway im happy for her considering the distance and time spent travelling. watched bride wars today, funny show. plus side: pretty anne hathaway is in it =) bball tmr in sch, maybe i'll catch a glimpse of my cousin haha

2009-02-02T20:54:00.002+08:00

went out to play pool today. started out the week with some fun. this week might actually turn out to be one of the better considering how i spent my past few. to the camping company: plz hurry and send the details! so i can spend my time doing something worthwhile thx.

on another note, can someone teach me how to play the guitar?! anyone!

2009-01-31T03:56:00.003+08:00

and when u think its all settled with ur past behind u, somehow it finds a way to come back and nip u in the back. what happened to those days when we used to hang out in the canteen eating tiny bowls of curry chicken noodles. i dun think u guys will ever see this but i juz wanna say thanks for the memories. haha primary school seems like such a distant yet crystal clear time.

revival of this blog begins today.

2008-10-12T22:37:00.001+08:00

new happier song! mugging sucks but its the last chance i've got so.... bye world. in isolation till 14th november.

2008-09-13T21:47:00.003+08:00

im super super happy. cos liverpool juz BEAT MAN U! wahahaha! and that was without gerrard or torres! i always knew babel would score somehow and he really proved himself. woohoo, guess the tattoo on my arm worked! hahaha.

replaced "you'll never walk alone" with my new fav song. not a new song but still nice.

2008-09-05T23:08:00.006+08:00

like every gd gp essay, this post is gonna have two sides. for and against haha. To a large extent, this wk has been great! but to a smaller extent, it sucked....

Bad
i now owe sumone 38 big pie kias... translated into dollars, thats $121.60! bloody hell, im nvr gonna play pool ever again. at least not with pies on the line...

Good
-LOY'S BIRTHDAY! FINALLY 18 YRS OLD! now can go ji siao the bouncer alr huh hahaha. went to changing appetites at Marina to celebrate, spaghetti sucked but chicken and mudpie v v good! at least to me. went to k box after that. rare thing for me haha, but ended up going crazy there. room became a mini disco after a while lol.

- highlight of the week though has to go to today. loy and shirley decided to come to jurong to STUDY for once. =D hahaha too bad they didnt get to experience my almost daily journey across half the island. as said, i packed my bag, went out all ready to do chem and hopefully pass my paper for once on mon. end up, we went shopping! wth haha. felt guilty aft a while so we decided to go to macs to do some work. and that lasted all of 10 mins. hahaha didnt even finish one question from ppr 3 lah! thx to shirley and loy, i was persuaded to go to kuishin bo to eat the jap buffet(pics will be uploaded when i get them from loy). gotta admit though, its dam good hahaha and the snow crabs didnt disappoint. ate and ate and talked and laughed and ate and ate somemore. end of the day, i grew a tummy, bloated beyond my capacity, and didnt even complete 1% of the chem i set out to do. lol perfect day to end the september hols! so now im lying on my bed, laptop on my shelf like tummy, thank god for high metabolism =) and i have a nagging feeling i wun be touching jap food for a long long time.

and dats juz dessert haha

SNOW CRABS! and its unlimited! hahaha beat that

the 10 mins of studying me and shirley did while loy played with his idoggy haha

2008-08-28T21:57:00.002+08:00

wow, com crashed, laptop hard drive failure so now im using my sis's com... everything electronic near me seems to fail after a while... lol im cursed.

anyway, caged again with the guys, had fun before the pain set in... ran till my legs were numb and stupid rick kicked (volleyed) my already weak ankle. so yea, thx! haha. prelim results dun seem to be promising. as usual, h2 subjects are doomed, h1 still surviving. i hope.

happier news: 2 iphones in the house! hahaha gonna kope one and start playing around without until my dad or mum demands it back. hope the curse doesnt continue haha.

2008-08-24T00:43:00.002+08:00

morning was fun. woke up at 7.00am juz to go to sch and play aother athc with the flowers. this time though the scoreline was much worse haha. oh well nvm we are team rojak anyway. almost made a miraculous comeback after halftime from 4-0 down to 4-3 but aft that our def and midfield self-combusted. nvm nxt time we'll whack them.

at night went out with the 115 ppl plus loy, terence hui, weiqin and zhonghong. went to st james to help support meixing in a beauty pageant. met with some screw ups along the way and felt kinda bad abt it. hope the time after that made up for it huh haha. bought 5 bottles of diet coke and mentos to somehow emulate the youtube videos. didnt meet with much success exploding it but managed to get everyone drenched in sticky coke and mentos bfore gg home haha. dam fun, laughed a lot, df gonna do it again soon. more coke and mentos coming up!

"The world's our playground
Have fun while we can =)"

2008-08-22T21:58:00.000+08:00

"If music be the epitome of beauty,
ur the best damn thing i've ever heard."

non lit students, go figure =)

2008-08-01T23:19:00.002+08:00

and the sch admin said we shouldnt be blogging anymore nowadays cos prelims are 1 FREAKING WEEK AWAY! but i juz did, so sue me =)

played a friendly field soccer match with "the flowers" (i think its that) hahaha. wierd name but fun game! crazy ppl wanted to play a 40mins half and i didnt think i would last that long, but i did! and scored a goal in the process =D srry juz had to boast abt that hahaha. not a lot of things i can boast abt. final score 2-1 to the flowers. we lost but its the fun that matters. now if only we could do this again after the A lvls.

2008-07-21T22:26:00.003+08:00

omg omg omg 20+ days to prelims and less than a hundred to As!! ahhhh! u can almost count it down using ur fingers and toes! die die die, the pressures on alr. gonna stay back in sch everyday to mug like crazy till 9 with various other smart ppl. saturday force myself to come for detention and mug mug mug. wonder if theres anyone who would wanna come back with me lol. i hate studying alone, its like so.... alone... haha dun like the quiet feeling.

and wads worse! so many nice movies!! top 2 are red cliff and THE DARK KNIGHT. i dun care if im watching the last one alone im still gonna watch it. and i think im one of the few noobs who havnt caught hancock... dammit im so behind. but prelims and As!! ahhh! kkz i gg offline to mug now. bye

nicest version of this song i've heard! dam nice lah.

2008-07-07T23:15:00.003+08:00

shall reply to tags here.

Elaine: hahaha of cos spain was good =D but germany wasnt that bad either, i liked the way they played last time haha. and im not really emo, juz a bit tired haha. thx anyway =)

Shirley: liverpool! haha and i really dun mind u teasing me. its like karma cos i always disturb others also hahaha. and plz dun swear on dat! im v sure that there are others who can do a much better job.

Aikbin: haha thx for always being there! and i didnt see u at nats recently! or maybe u'll be coming down this wk? haha really hope to see u there cos patrick has been coming down everyday! and i think he might be lonely haha

MRS CHOU: hmm i thought that label was supposed to be kept secret? how come u advertise until so big! ahaha now its gonna spread alr. watch out for reporters!

219: u know, up till now i still dunno who exactly u are. i have strong suspicions that ur a guy and that i know u pretty well. if so, calling me darling is NOT the way to go... hahaha. but thx also for the encouragement =)

2008-07-04T22:44:00.005+08:00

this post is gonna be a ranting post. im so dam sick of everything, studies, track, injuries, teachers breathing down my neck. in particular one certain teacher. i know she juz wants me to do better and achieve my "potential". but are little notes like "u should look for an alternative combination to do better" and "its almost too late for u" gonna help? not to mention picking on me every lesson. when im writing notes u shout look at the board, when im looking at the board u say im daydreaming. i try to be polite and ignore but sometimes even the biasness can be seen by others. to be honest, the only thing thats keeping me going are the friends in school. even life at home seems to came to a standstill. i reach home at 9+ - 10 cos of track, go to my room, lie on my bed and feel so exhausted. sch work and the upcoming prelims (i know its important dammit u dun have to keep reminding me...) and finally a lvls, they all seem so near yet i dun find in me the drive or the ability to sit down and study for it. studying's like a waste of time, marks we get back somehow nvr hit the divine 50+. i've practically given up hope on it.

and being capt of track is one of the most pressurising job of all. everything thrust upon u, expectations become insurmountable. and most of the time i dun feel the stress of running well. its more the stress of getting the team together and having to take the blasting when things go wrong. ppl not listening to advice or instructions, giving rubbish excuses for little things but i juz accept it and pass it on to mr sara and take the scolding. somehow its like a habit alr, being scolded. thank god for ppl who really have made life easier especially shirley, loy and yong wen. really grateful for all the help u guys have given. now its nats, sara things im an idiot cos i didnt get my knee looked at properly, heck i think im an idiot also. he blames the team for not putting in effort and that translates to me not putting in enough effort in the team, which to some extent is true. now runners have screwed up bad, potential medallists gone down the drain and guess whos gonna take the flak after nats. the medals juz dont make up for the shit i've gone through. i'd rather not have them.

guess im gonna have to rewatch "the secret" sometime soon. or find something else in life worth living for.

2008-07-01T22:00:00.002+08:00

a bit late to say this but... SPAIN ARE THE CHAMPIONS!! =D my prediction was right! wahahaha and cos of that im 30 bucks richer. hahaha srry elaine, maybe nxt time ba. theres always euro 2012! haha but i think spain might win again though. torres finally came through and scored the winning goal! always knew he could perform in the big match.

sad thing though, im pretty much confirmed out of nats alr. nerve rubbing against bone is the verdict due to excessive stress and impact. so no competetive running until its recovered. i might juz try out for the 800m though but gotta see how.

2008-06-28T20:46:00.004+08:00

i nvr knew guidebooks cost so much. wth... went shopping for guide bks to at least help me somehow get past prelims hopefully and ended up paying a crazy amnt. frst time i ever saw an ECONS book cost $60! bloody economists, they sure know how to make money dammit.

juz watched LOTR. i think its one of if not the best ever movie produced. imo its better than star wars by a mile haha. and i juz have to say this, arwen is THE perfect woman. stunningly beautiful, demure, graceful and not to mention she speaks in a dam cool language. even her name sounds nice hahaha.

2008-06-27T04:40:00.002+08:00

and im dam happy now =D cos spain won!! woohoo! so its gonna be the dream final huh elaine. SPAIN vs GERMANY! hahaha and no prizes for guessing who im going for =D super high, dun think im gonna be able to slp tonite. even though hes an arsenal player, thank god fabregas is also spanish. hahaha

SPAIN: 3
RUSSIA: 0

wasnt even close. and if they play like this again, germany really dun have much of a chance either.

2008-06-23T23:22:00.000+08:00

lol kinda cool. took the link off sherlyn's blog btw.

2008-06-22T22:20:00.002+08:00

im so dead. econs tmr, chem on wed, maths on thurs and i dun even know when lit is. only read through monopoly and market failure for tmr and my com is on. i think i'd be better off not gg for the dam ppr tmr...

2008-06-17T19:25:00.005+08:00

* People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs.
* Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse.
* These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people!

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
hmm i really dunno.. haha find a way to get back and ruin her life! nah, its kinda hard to answer cos i've no idea what i'll do.

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
play in anfield with liverpool. period. hahaha oh and have a successful future despite me being so slack now.

3. What will your dream wedding be like?
its definitely gonna be somewhere scenic. i like the cliffs in northern ireland =D and open air. attendance limited to family and close friends. haha very english kinda wedding huh.

4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
yup. to pass a lvls or not to pass that is the question. not that i dun wanna pass but i gotta change my attitude now and dats kinda hard...

5. What's your ideal lover like?
outgoing, open, someone i can talk openly to. someone i can disturb hahaha.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
both are blessings i guess. love has to be a two way thing, being loved and loving. very philosophical and complicated.

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
no definite amount of time. like they always say, when she comes i'll know it. and love takes time to develop so yea, dun really believe in love at first sight.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
juz let it go i guess. and sit and stare from a distance away. or be like rick and have the mentality that as long as they're not married they're available. heck even if they're married theres still a chance =D

9. Is there anything that's made you unhappy these days?
from my previous posts i would say hell yea. but things are changing for the better now hopefully.

10. Is being tagged fun?
kind of cos i've nvr really thought abt these ques before but it sucks having to sit here and ans them on the spot...

11. How do you see yourself in ten years time?
working in a successful company, slowly climbing up the corporate ladder and gg back for reservist...

12. Who are currently the most important people to you?
parents! they're my bank! how can that be unimportant... haha on second thoughts, my family not just parents.

13. What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?
non-sporty, hates sweating but nice overall haha. someone who likes combos. and evil cos she tagged me....

14. Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
or option 3. married and rich. i wouldnt rather be this or that. i make my own future! =D although juz to ans the ques, single and rich.

15. What's the first thing you do every morning?
these few days im still slping in the morning. i only get up in the aft haha. but aft i get up i on my com. its a deadly habit.

16. Would you give it all in a relationship?
yup. y not. esp if i feel shes the right one.

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
migrate overseas for a few years. i'll choose the one i miss more haha. but by that time she'll prob be taken alr. if that happens, refer to ques 8

18. What type of friends do you like?
hmm lets see, the kind of ppl u find in 115. those who stand by u no matter wad, ppl u can go out and have fun with, ppl u organise imprompt chalets and bbqs with. ppl u can open up to without the fear of them revealing ur secrets.

19. What type of friends do you dislike?
arrogant and upstuck ppl who think that money makes the world go round. and believe me i've seen a lot of these ppl.

The 8 person that I have tagged to do this quiz: Yongwen, shirley, aikbin, hannah(if ur reading this), lynnette(also if ur reading this), minzhi, sherlyn and one other person who reads this and feels that he has nothing to do.

2008-06-16T00:06:00.003+08:00

on fathers day instead of me giving my dad a surprise he gave me one... a trip with the family to usa which was booked and cfmed 4 days ago. wth even i didnt see that coming. he says becos its cheaper to go there now then before then i ask omg how much, then he says 10k+ for air tickets. 10k juz for the freaking air tickets! how the hell can that be cheap! or cheaper in any case! oh well take it as motivation for a lvls as he says.... still in semi shock at the figure. juz imagine how many ppl it could feed in china or myanmar... and another bad side to this is im gonna miss another 115 class chalet... ah crap.

oh and in response to min, yea it worked slightly! thx! =D cos i was thinking of what i need to motivate myself for a lvls and voila, here it is!

2008-06-11T23:05:00.003+08:00

and heres something to be happy abt! spain won! too bad torres didnt score but 1 assist isnt too bad. anyway there are other matches for him to display his skills. and im especially happy that they won cos i get a FREE MEAL! =D thx in advance hahaha

now its time for portugal to make czech republic cry. to be honest i dunno who i'll support if these 2 teams make it to the finals lol.

2008-06-09T20:32:00.003+08:00

i think its worse than i thought it was. turns out i cant even run 100m properly. in fact i gotta stop and walk after jogging 50m+. really dun see how i can recover in 2 weeks in time for nats. plus all the training i missed out. like my ex-coach said, every training u miss is one training that others gain. so yea.. this sucks.

2008-06-05T16:44:00.002+08:00

and i looked back on my life and i cant seem to find anything i can be really proud of. disappointments upon disappointments over and over. im gonna prove u wrong.

2008-06-02T22:11:00.004+08:00

these few days ive been getting pissed off which is so unlike my normal self.. frst the race then the dam wound which stings like a billion ants biting when i bathe then the stupid soccer teaming. i mean wads the dam point of sending out a team with 0 experienced soccer players and expect them to do well against other teams. seriously team a no doubt is considered the better team but that doesnt mean u dun give a shit abt team b. at least give them a fighting chance rite! not pointing fingers but whoever did up the team list really is an a**hole. wow im becoming more vulgar too... gotta learn frm sara and meditate and do yoga or wadeva the hell he does to keep calm.

2008-06-01T20:21:00.003+08:00

today was the frst time i got spiked in a freaking race. dam pissed abt it cos it cost me my time... went 7 freaking seconds off!! omg... strategy was a quick burst to get in front before the rest cut in then suddenly bam! next thing i knew i was kissing the track. bloody hell if i meet that jj guy in nats again he better pray.

2008-05-31T23:56:00.003+08:00

hmm new 115 jersey maybe up and coming if all goes well haha. and im finally getting my number. 23! after 2 yrs of failed attempts, this yr i'll finally get it. wanted no.9 initially but didnt really think i was worthy of torres's number haha.

caught narnia today. dam nice show imo its like a younger version of lord of the rings. how nice it would be if there really was a fantasy world we could fall back on. a place with no studying, no stress of everyday life. no doubt there are wars and stuff but isnt that so much more exciting then blk tests? =)

2008-05-27T22:45:00.003+08:00

went for the ns checkup today and guess wad. somehow theres a problem with my heart... doc there referred me to alexandria hospital to do a scan so gonna miss one more day of sch nxt wk. thats the only gd part of it i guess haha. hopefully it isnt gonna be anything serious

2008-05-24T20:48:00.004+08:00

now i know how lobsters feel when they cook. im freaking burnt! i swear sunblock is totally useless in sg. its works exactly the same way as suntan lotion. anyway kayaking was fun haha. ran into minor difficulties at frst but ended up in the water anyway. THX CHERN HUI! best friend for the week hahaha. couldnt really get out of the demarcated area so had to go around in big circles. and boats were coming and going so we couldnt really go out into the channel. kayaking may become my new passion =) if only im not that burnt....

2008-05-17T12:58:00.006+08:00

it hurt so much i didnt even go for detention today. think i really gotta go see a doc soon. wad a time for this to happen...

someone was talking about suffering and pain in this world. and i fully agree. y do ppl have to die horrible deaths or go through lives starving. theres no answer, its juz how things work. maybe thats y we constantly look towards a certain sumone who has the power to give us hope in times of need, strength in times of trial. this song suddenly came into my mind and i cant seem to get it out. listen to the melody and feel the power of the words. btw i think she was born to sing this song haha the epitome of grace! =D

"Amazing Grace"

Amazing grace, how sweet the sound
That sav’d a wretch like me!
I once was lost, but now am found,
Was blind, but now I see.

’Twas grace that taught my heart to fear,
And grace my fears reliev’d;
How precious did that grace appear,
The hour I first believ’d!

Thro’ many dangers, toils and snares,
We have already come;
’Twas grace that brought me safe thus far,
And grace will lead me home.

When we’ve been there ten thousand years,
Bright shining as the sun,
We've no less days to sing God’s praise
Than when we first begun.

2008-05-14T22:26:00.001+08:00

apparently im juz not good enough. far from it. wad made me have such lofty ambitions? God knows

2008-05-13T20:11:00.003+08:00

juz put salt on my ulcer and it is fucking PAIN! so stinging that it shoots to my head. oh well, no pain no gain like sara likes to say. now its bleeding. ow. dammit i hate ulcers

2008-05-12T22:56:00.004+08:00

so man u won the league.... but thats ok. next yr will be OUR year! on the bright side of things, at least NO. 09 TORRES made history by becoming the foreign player who scored the most goals in his first season. woohoo! always knew he was gonna be a great buy, and guess wad. hes juz gonna improve and be better next year! =D look out epl cos el nino is around.

The armband said he was a Red Torres, Torres
"You'll Never Walk Alone" it said Torres, Torres
We bought the lad from sunny Spain
He gets the ball and scores again
Fernando Torres
Liverpool's Number 9

tactic on wednesday: juz stick with charles no matter wad. if even that fails then i've got nothing to say.

2008-05-05T22:31:00.000+08:00

and my heart always skips a beat when i see her. it shouldnt.

2008-05-03T23:43:00.007+08:00

amidst the symphony of melodious music, one song stood out. Armenian Dances. I closed my eyes, and everything juz came rushing back. i remember the exact tempo, rythmn, harmony changes, the parts to come in and even the notes to play. i remember the crowd, standing in front of hundreds of people, the bright lights shining down, being part of one big band composed of strangers. i remember the tension but also the fun, the lightness of making music together. i remembered the day we played as musicians in the esplanade.

so many choices we have made but time will not turn back to let us change them. i had one choice in the past that still lingers in my mind. sports or music. What if i had chosen music?

Memories.

2008-04-26T20:51:00.002+08:00

x country was a semi disaster imo. wasnt a full one cos i did improve on my timing, which unfortunately was still crap lousy so i shant even bother talking abt it here. anyway, wads done is done now the next thing to look forward to is 14th MAY!!

The biggest event in my life is around the corner and i cant afford to screw this up like all the other stuff i've screwed up. the consequences are just too "big" hahahaha. It either beat charles or die a horrible horrendous death in which my very soul will be scarred. and the first step i've taken to beat him is..... finally mastering mr sara's running style! =D omg i swear it really works. i've tried it out and improved my 400m timing by a few seconds! only draw back is, after only one time my hamstring started to hurt like crazy. i think cos im still not used to it. gotta start using this technique every training and see how it works out. hahaha thx charles for helping me beat u.

had cip with the track team today and no surprise, it was fun! hahaha seeing all those little kids running their guts out and having fun, singapore's future track team was set. competition was slightly unfair though cos all the medals were swept by a few in their various categories, kids gg home with up to 7 medals. hahaha super imba sia. had an idea for a track camp in june, shall discuss it with the team and see how it goes =)

2008-04-22T22:14:00.002+08:00

somehow i've found new motivation to run again. i think its the team! theres an atmosphere now with uber high j1s. its juz not right to let them down.

tmrs the day, the last time in my life im running a 5k competetively and to be honest, i dun think im gonna do very well at all. i think im gonna be lucky to get into the top half considering my standard now. oh well juz gonna run my guts out and think about my inspiration to push myself on. leg plz somehow heal overnight and trouble me no more.

2008-04-07T22:51:00.002+08:00

sara had a talk with us today, and he said medals and trophies arent everything and i agree with him. winning a trophy because ppl think u shld isnt the right way to go. i win them for myself. and this year, maybe i'll take a break from all that pressure, apart from nationals, its time to take it slow and easy and maybe just enjoy myself for once.

2008-03-25T21:58:00.003+08:00

went to yishun today to play bball with ter, sh, jesley and her friend huimin. had fun as usual. how can being with friends not be fun?

was thinking about this on the bus ride home, i really dun have much time anymore. seeing wad i got for chem, no doubt i have to admit there wasnt much effort put into it... no, in fact there wasnt effort put into it at all. maybe its time to put everything else aside and start working for my future, considering i havnt done that for the past 8 yrs. old habits die hard but this is something i really have to change... no more slacking or fooling around. A lvls is coming and i must be ready for it.

next target, mid yr blk test.

2008-03-23T00:34:00.003+08:00

and heres the timetable for the past 2 days

Fri morn and aft - slp.
10 pm - MOS
12 am - Zouk
4.30 am - gz's house
8.30 am - slp 1 hr
9.30 am - soccer with kenny in sch
3.30 pm - slp 3 hrs
6.45 pm - sakae outing
10.30 pm - MOS again since dung (pronounced YOOM) wanted to have a taste of clubbing
12.30 - home again

so yea for the past 2 days i've had arnd 4 hrs total of slp, played soccer, went to 2 clubs in a night. and now im dead tired. practically hallucinating alr haha. so yup, GDNITE WORLD. looking forward to a long hibernation tonite =)

2008-03-20T22:48:00.002+08:00

BLK TEST OVER!! haha not like i was that stressed up over it. oh well 3 U and maybe 2 passes? haha praying for the best. played bbal finally today! even though i suck at it, still great to have fun with friends =D looong fun filled weekend ahead. MOS tmr, sakae class gathering on sat, really looking forward to it.

and i still get goosebumps listening to the song below

2008-03-19T19:47:00.002+08:00

if there were angels singing in heaven it would prob sound something like this =D its amazing how human voices can sound so good

2008-03-13T21:47:00.005+08:00

CAGE TODAY! =D i think its the most fun thing a group of guys can do, followed by crazy shouting at a lan shop, killing countless bots running and firing back at u. hahaha one sad thing though, i cant seem to break my 2 goal drought.... EVERYTIME! i score 2, then somehow end up doing nothing for the rest of the match... sucks man. nvm, things will change.

and something dam stupid happened. after cage we went to kallang leisure park to eat to avoid the rain. turns out the bloody place didnt have a bus stop or a taxi stand nearby. BUT it had a shuttle bus to noel corporation. according to a source, it was supposedly close to kallang mrt. so all of us decided to go on that bus! what that source neglected to mention was that kallang river was DIVIDING the 2 sides, putting the station and us on opposite sides. thus began our great obs trek through the stupid rain to find a route to the station when our initial intention was to avoid it... hahaha almost got frostbite in the stupid freezer like bus when i finally got onto it. i will NEVER go to kallang leisure park again.

2008-03-07T22:58:00.003+08:00

Thus there was a great divide. A rift appeared and with a shudder, the world was torn in two. on one side, the heavens opened up and poured forth showers of sorrow. and on the other, the blazing sun illuminated all who were in it. i stood in the center of it all. watching, waiting, wondering which side i belonged to. torrents and blasts of wind ravaged my right while warm rays caressed my left. confusion reigned, tormenting me. the desire to stray, conflicting emotions.

Intenst fear of wad is to come, the need to overcome it and with success. A myriad of faces around me, contrasting and pressing. ignorance is bliss or so they say, but that option was not available for me.

Abstract? maybe to some, but to me its all very clear. Go figure

2008-03-06T21:25:00.002+08:00

OK here are some pics from last night's outing which i koped from various sources haha

2008-03-05T23:21:00.003+08:00

museum visit today was kinda enjoyable, looking at broken old statues and trying on greek costumes. according to shan hong, its our erm... 2nd class outing!! hahaha. what happened after the museum visit was really great though. the ENTIRE class went for dinner together at the glass house! minus billy who had karate, jesley whos in malaysia and liyong and kaling who had to go off earlier. too bad they werent there but the rest came. cant believe it. had so much fun there as a class =D oh ya, purpose was a farewell dinner for DEBORAH LOH YING TONG whos gone to poly. sery our very own potential sg idol went up on stage to sing a song specially for her summore. hope u enjoyed urself DLYT! even if u didnt its ok, cos i did =D

2008-02-29T23:43:00.003+08:00

kkz time to blog about my bday celebration, in summary haha.

went with rick, elaine, minmin and jinghui to some disney themed restaurant to eat at anchorpoint. atmosphere there wasnt too bad with nice decor and gabriella to look at =D but i lost my reputation.... was surprised by 2 cakes, and a complimentary limited edition packet of cookies which i was forced to share among all the little kids there. haha oh well, was kinda like a really thin santa to them i guess. returned to my table and found the gift waiting for me! they got me a TRANSFORMER audio player! hahaha woohoo transformer man! like gg back to my lost childhood. rick had fun trying to make it look like a robot cos i was too afraid i would break something haha. thx guys! really like the gift =D went to ikea after the lunch to eat some more meatballs and chicken wings before i had to leave them to go eat dinner with parents. think i grew at least a few grams ba. hopefully.

kkz gonna go off and zzz alr. DAM tired, nvr felt so tired before, legs numb, ankle acting up and woohoo more running tmr. muz beat charles!

2008-02-25T20:49:00.003+08:00

and i just feel like a hypocrite once again. its not fun telling ur friends off, especially since they've always been there for u.... the feeling just sucks but some things really have gotta change for us to move on as a team. individualism cant exist, but letting it all out was bittersweet. i dunno if they'll look at me now with accusing eyes. hopefully things change for the better, i dun want to break it all down.

shall post about my birthday another time. juz not really in the mood now.

2008-02-23T12:10:00.001+08:00

okok good finally got the tagboard up. still doesnt look v good, i think i really suck at art haha. NEW LAYOUT courtesy of fellow CHANG. THX haha liverpool forever =D srry for accusing u wrongly! >.<

2008-02-23T00:37:00.003+08:00

ITS MY BIRTHDAY!! WOOHOO! hahaha muz start off with a high note rite?

anyway, got some gifts even before the actual day arrived! from the time assembly ended, i was AMBUSHED and had a BARNEY balloon tied to my bag. couldnt take it out so i ended up looking like a fool the whole day, hiding it under lecture seats so teacher's wouldnt see it and target me... hahaha. then throughout the day, i kept getting roses from people. first 2 were from elaine and min min, then elaine's sister, then samantha, then rick and terence i think. the one from elaine's sis was most embarassing for reasons i shall not divulge... haha but thx anyway to everyone especially to min min and elaine for the balloon and surprises.

went to bishan to eat with terence hui and liyong. laughed till 6 pack come out. and then the horrendous train ride. i was like a walking clown to kids. "MUM, GOT BALLOON!" "see kor kor holding cute barney balloon!" and one kid on the bus asking me if it could fly... WTH! oh well, they're kids so i dun really blame them...

so heres to the start of my 19th year on earth. gg out to celebrate it with a bunch of people tmr, or later on. dammit im 19. so young yet so old. how paradoxical...

2008-01-30T22:06:00.000+08:00

i believe in ghosts now. i used to think they were figments of one's imagination.... but i've been proven wrong. totally. juz watched a show called Ghosthunters on star world, and i got freaked out. they had video evidence of something or sumone unseen pulling the blanket off a sleeping investigators feet!! dun believe me, go check this team out, T.A.P.S ( the atlantic paranormal society). even with such hardcore evidence they refused to say it was a supernatural activity cos it might have been the other leg moving, but obviously it wasnt cos the other leg's shape could still be seen under the blanket... srry for ranting so much but im a believer. there are things in this world that we dunno about, and its not good to mess with them.

2008-01-21T22:02:00.000+08:00

Its been so long since my last post that i almost forgot my password haha. oh well time to revive my blog and what better way to do it then in true literature style =)

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud,
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find me, unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul

2007-12-30T22:44:00.000+08:00

back from cruise!! woah it was fun man. esp the onboard shows, night entertainment and basically juz relaxing on a freaking huge boat with maze-like corridors. still couldnt really find my way around even on the last day haha how noob is dat. will post pics when im not so lazy.

now for the sad part. i lost my wallet!! i dunno how also, think someone stole it... or maybe i juz dropped it cant believe it. went on board a boat with my wallet. got off with my wallet. went to class chalet with my wallet. 2 hrs being there and its gone!! depression... bloody police tell me no need make report lah. go ica to make new ic, mrt to make new ezlink card. nah bei if sumone use my ic for other stuff ah, i gonna sue them sia. think they lazy write report only.

2007-12-13T23:58:00.000+08:00

venue: The Cage (kallang)

time: 10 - 12

Result: 11 physically tired guys tottering on the brink of exhaustion.

even with that, we still went to play lan!! hahaha from 2 - 9.30, it was non stop gaming. ok maybe a few pauses in between to choose games and shift lan shops. but other than that.... 7 pure hours of staring at a com screen, "covering ppl's asses", storming bunkers with a bloody scooter, feel the joy of a raised flag only to be gunned down 3 secs later, triumph over 32 AI bots with only 11 of us and shouting for supplies. Dammit we def gotta have another outing like this! =D this time though, preferably soccer and lan on diff days plz. as rick said, soccer drained us physically, lan drained us mentally. wads left are just walking zombies.

kkz gonna go slp now, dam tired. work tmr!! gdnite world

2007-12-11T22:56:00.000+08:00

dammit i've got a useless ankle. hurts like hell after 2 days of work, i running on pure adrenaline most of the time. and painkillers. work is fun though, got nice ppl there. funny manager, helpful supervisors, think im gonna enjoy it there. at least it helps me pass the hols and earn some cash too. haha left hand def gonna become stronger holding trays and plates everyday =D finally, i've found a use for it.

cage on thursday!! woohoo so looking forward to it. gotta pray like crazy my ankle wont act up on that day.

and hey cheer up if ur reading this =) the old u was fun, the new u.... not too sure bout that.

2007-12-09T00:55:00.000+08:00

sec sch bbq was great! meeting everyone again, watching dumb old videos, disturbing lee, bin and goldfish again. times pass, years change but memories are forever. finished up all the food by 9+... so juz sat around talking crap. parting seemed temporary, with the knowledge that no matter what, well meet again soon. now looking forward to a primary sch reunion haha.

found out xia was in a kinda similar situation to me. "kinda" cos hes gg army alr. i hope he succeeded in his plan haha. i shouldnt be trying so hard. wow this sucks haha.

2007-12-01T02:29:00.000+08:00

match of the century takes place in a few hrs time! and im not slping yet, dunno how im gonna wake up on time, BUT i must! hahaha gonna be exciting no matter who wins

2007-11-29T05:37:00.000+08:00

ytd was the most boring visit to sentosa ever. chalets aft chalets were fully booked. lucky we have 2 more to hope for....

Besiktas: 8
Porto: 4
Marseille: ?

Liverpool on a rampage, torres on form once again, gerrard mathing owen's european score, liverpool scoring 17 goals in 4 games, marseille better start praying.=D

2007-11-24T21:19:00.000+08:00

juz saw yahoo news. evacuated cruise ship sinks near antarctica. scary man. so dats wad becomes of ppl who wanna see penguins. dammit i dun wanna go anymore haha.

and torres juz missed an open open goal. wth?

2007-11-24T00:09:00.000+08:00

sports and job hunting day! haha found a job at the coffee club, to pass my time through the hols and maybe get my psp? better than rotting at home though. exhausted and tired. bedtime! =D

2007-11-22T20:44:00.000+08:00

my com's down!! my lifeline to the world has been cut... bloody hell, all my fav's, everyone's blogs, movies, songs, games all gone! no more HEROES! =( wah this sucks lah, depression le

marina bay steamboat was fun, sort of haha. at least there were fun ppl there. personal chef = dajie. hahaha the chicken gave me stomachache! went to arcade awhile, had fun killing giant spiders and flies with unlimited ammo. dun think there'll ever be a class outing. some things are just not possible.

2007-11-17T22:36:00.001+08:00

you know how life picks u up when u fall and gives u a second chance. well fuck that second chance. hopes dashed, an emotional rollercoaster. im sick of it and now im taking one step at a time.

2007-11-12T20:57:00.000+08:00

class chalet was fun! summing up the night in a few words: bbq, night cycling, HAPPY BDAY WEIQIN, monopoly (got owned by bday boy), risk.

last week of school, must be guai and not skip anymore school days. must last for another 4 days! but its tough... timetable really sucks, chem teacher's attitude not really inspiring me to go for her lessons, only thing that keeps me gg are friends and classmates. oh well. 96 more hrs to freedom!

2007-11-05T22:32:00.000+08:00

and the unimaginable pressure has finally been lifted. the overhanging shadow of results have lingered long enough, and now the chains that have shackled and ensnared me have been cast into the abyss.

lit writing aside, 220 here i come! =D thank god for that miracle. for the gifted 2 extra marks that help me make it through if not.... green uniform with camouflage le, for friends and classmates promoting as well, and for 115 finally all making it to j2. gz u can do it, only 6 more days, go study with jan haha.

2007-10-31T20:40:00.001+08:00

kkz frst of all..... THX! to jinghui, elaine and minmin for the halloween candies haha. didnt know u guys werent serious abt "ur not included". shall get u some nice candies sometime soon! =)

now here's the list for janson's reference haha

THINGS TO DO AFTER A'S
1) go to queensway for secret mission.
2) activate project dismantle the school
3) turn on the charm!
4) camp overnight in sch. *note: bring scissors for defusal
5) class chalet! 20th - 23rd december. and any other imprompt ones that pop up along the way
6) any bbqs? *
7) sentosa? *
8) team 15 vs any j1 class who dare oppose us * (rick ur class is included)
9) k box

all these in the 7 weeks u guys have left before changing uniforms. hahaha see how many we can get done huh.

if playing secret could bring me back to the past, i would gladly do so everyday. if only to go back to the day i first met u.

2007-10-30T22:45:00.001+08:00

2006
The memory still imprinted vividly in my mind, as though it happened yesterday. the class gathered at the corner classroom at J block. the one nearest the carpark. in that fateful room, all was revealed. janson knew it frst, then like wildfire, the news spread. who stayed down, who had a chance, and who was cleared. this time however, luck ran out for half of us.

115 got torn into 2, those who made it into the higher realms and those who remained to suffer yet another year of torture. feelings were mixed, confusion reigned, the dazed faces around us stunned beyond recognition. although we had mentally prepared ourselves for the news, that preparation seemed in vain. the guys as a grp, walked across the carpark in deafening silence. languishing on the stony ground at the grandstand, reality finally hit us. 115 was no more. some decided to talk a longer walk, circling the track, others continued to stare at the wooden roof, a roof they would see for another 2 years.

it was then that the girls came over. tears in their eyes, evoking even stronger emotions in our closely bonded class. depression overflowing, heaviness and sadness smothering.

2007
one year later, will this be the same scene? for the sake of my classmates and friends, im praying its not. as for myself, mental preparation failed me once. this time, i'll just take whatever comes my way.

2007-10-25T21:36:00.000+08:00

this whole week has been nthing but bball, soccer, and squash. as a result, i think my right ankle's busted.... got that funny suan suan kind of feeling, cant bend left or right. nvm think i'll try to sleep it off. sunburnt twice in a wk, skin soon becoming wei lun color. this is bad, tan is ok, but too tan is... scary. haha

so many things i wanna find out, to know. but speeding is dangerous.

2007-10-22T23:13:00.000+08:00

havnt updated in a looong time but thats cos im lazy haha. these few days have been nothing but slacking around, NOT anticipating results, washing the dam track in school, slicing my own leg with water....

i swear yjc is making use of free labor, although it is kinda fun but.... we're still being made use of. think they no money to hire professional track cleaners or to CHANGE THE WHOLE THING. end up, we do the dirty work. oh well at least it was fun.

2 more wks to results maybe? God if u havnt granted me a miracle, now would be a nice time to do it

2007-10-10T23:01:00.000+08:00

promos are finally almost over. did regret not starting to study earlier slightly but oh well its all over. whether i change uniform next yr will be revealed in a few wks time. till then i'll juz live each day in jc as though it'll be my last.

on a brighter note, looking forward to tmr and fri. tmr cos i'll be meeting up with RODNEY 6 again for dinner! =D and fri cos we're having our rematch in bball and soccer against roger's ppl. Team 15 vs RFC. this time we're not gonna lose to a TYCO goal.

2007-10-07T22:41:00.001+08:00

and its at times like these when i thank God for the friends that i have.

juz wanted to thank janson and wei lun for sacrificing their time the past few days to help me with my chem and econs despite ur looming A lvls. thx for passing me ur "notes to success", i really really appreciate it and whether i pass or fail my promos, i will find a way to thank u guys properly. =)

the bonds that bind

2007-10-06T22:51:00.001+08:00

and those times that have eluded me before just came rushing back. will history repeat itself, or will i finally get to move on. i nvr wanted it to end, those bonds we had. those bonds we will continue to have.

pictures are static images of the past; memories are forever.

on the brighter side, went to sch to study and finally got to play basketball and soccer with jan and weilun again. scored 2! =D and i swear weilun's new name can be torres. think he faked just about everyone he came up against haha.

2007-10-02T16:54:00.000+08:00

and gp today was juz... wierd. of all the times to not concentrate it had to be today. haha, stared at the essay ques for the frst 15 mins, wasnt even choosing which ques i wanted to write on. ended up picking the frst one i saw, which obviously was ques 1).... lucky it wasnt so hard, on environment and stuff, hope my crappy self generated stats from National Geographic fools the teacher! hahaha.

compre was even more screwed up. frst ques, stun alr. turn to summary, stun again. for the frst time in my life i had to find stuff to fill up the no. of words in a summary! think im gonna fail compre...

2nd highlight: cut my hair today, cos it was really getting messy. stupid qu mo. ended up gg with sh to some bukit timah place. now its short. as in SHORT. but at least i can see my fringe hahaha. came out with some new jap hairstyle, might style it the same way tmr juz to see dajie's reaction hahaha.

2007-10-01T22:19:00.000+08:00

an hour more
every minute spent
seconds delayed
euphoric bliss

fleeting time
a certain moment
islands apart
transcending gloom

awaiting

2007-09-30T22:56:00.000+08:00

all my h2 subjects are soo gonna pass hahaha. gonna get 60 for chem so i pass it overall. econs i'll juz pray for a miracle, and maths.... thx to my tuition teacher, its ok this year! no chance of failing. not much anyway. gp and lit are both doing well. so my only two worries are chem and econs. or juz chem anyway cos my main aim for econs is to not fail too badly. looking on the bright side, these few days there have been progress on my chem n im quite happy bout it =D hope it continues

2007-09-28T19:55:00.001+08:00

i dun have the right to feel like this. but i still do. y?